“We must bring our own light to the darkness. Nobody is going to do it for us.” Charles Bukowski
Darkness Visible II
Tag: Depression
As Time Goes By
“When you don’t have anything to do, your thoughts get really, really far out – so far out you can’t follow them all the way to the end.” Haruki Murakami
Mask Fatigue
“Tired, tired with nothing, tired with everything, tired with the world’s weight he had never chosen to bear.” F. Scott Fitzgerald
What Remains?
“Nothing remains but to hope the end will come to extinguish the unrelenting pain of waiting for it.” Pier Paolo Pasolini
Thoughts on a Gray Day
“I have the true feeling of myself only when I am unbearably unhappy.” Kafka
Caged in Spirit
“Once I was free; there was no cage that could bind me, and I had yet to create my box of numbness within my mind to be my silent protector.” J.D. Stroube
The Horse at the Bar
I met this horse at the bar today and he seemed to be in a very bad mood. He was on a break from taking tourists for rides through the Amish Countryside so I introduced myself and asked how he was doing.
He said; “Crap. It’s all crap. Living is crap. Life has no meaning. None. Nowhere to be found. Crap. Why doesn’t anybody realize this?” I was not surprised that he said this but surprised that he was so good with words.
So I asked; “Isn’t that from Ballad of a Shinigami by K-Ske Hasegawa?” He gave me a look like he was gonna bite my head off and replied; “Yeah, I read Manga, got a problem with that?”
I did not, and walked away scratching my head thinking that this is the coolest horse I’ve ever met and wondered if we could get together for lunch one day and talk more. It was just another normal day for me in Lancaster County, P.A.
So Many Raindrops
“I always like walking in the rain, so no one can see me crying.” Charlie Chaplin
Self-Isolation
“You have entered an abnormal, lonely, and unwelcome new world where you are nothing but an island of sadness.” Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
The Boredom and Sadness of Being
I’m going to be working on another project with my friend Alena Shminke but we’re having trouble figuring it out. This morning she suggested that we make it out of the boredom and sadness of being, which to me sounded perfect.
This is my first take on the theme, only today I had a fantastic day and wasn’t bored for a second. Fortunately I’m Bipolar so my mood changes as fast as a Cheetah on meth.
Scratched film texture added in ON1 Effects.
Tired
“It’s remarkable how we go on year after year, doing the same old things. We get tired and bored, and ask when they’ll come for us.” Yasunari Kawabata
Sink Or Swim
“There are too many ways to drown even if you don’t want to drown.” Charles Bukowski
