I remember this day like it was yesterday, even though it was more than fifty five years ago. I told the photographer the light was bad, the sailor suit was cliché, and that we should ditch the teddy bear. But he just told me to shut up and sit still.
Looking back I can’t help but wonder if this was really me. I mean, I no longer have blond hair and I’m considerably taller. Is any of this person who I am now? Does this happy looking kid still exist in me somewhere? Basically, who the hell am I now at 59?
Sadhguru and many others have said that I am not the body or even the mind, which would make it very hard to choose clothes that fit. Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj, author of I Am That says that I am not the person I think I am.
But I think E. E. Cummings said it best: “It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.” Dammit.
Photography OCD 
It’s interesting to look at photos from our youth and reflect like this. Your thoughts are amusing.
The quotation from ee has additional depth when you learn he supported Joe McCarthy.
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Thanks I glad you were amused. I consider myself well educated but have no clue when it comes to politics. I thought Joe McCarthy was a puppet, maybe he ran a Puppet Regime?
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What an interesting question.. does that kid then exist in me now….
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I’ve decided he does-I’m the same spoiled brat I was then only I’m aware of it now. 🙂
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I believe a child always exists inside, we empower it through our experience and wisdom, given a chance comes out. Cute picture.
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Thank you Indira, my inner child seems to be the one who runs in fear as well as the one who jumps out of bed in the morning with a smile.
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It will always be there, no matter how old are you. Nurture it and the life will never seem boring.
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Not only that but I will always have something to talk about with my therapist.
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Sot true.
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I wish your inner child will always smile like that, Mike!
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Thanks Shminke but I can’t seem to find him anymore.
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He is always alive. It was hurting experience for me to find mine once again. But now I’m happy. Most of the time.
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Yes he’s in there somewhere, hiding from growing up I think.
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You can talk to him if you want to. I think he doesn’t need to grow up. Some else parts did this.
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He’s very shy and quiet most of the time.
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All children need love.
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Yes they do, even older ones like me.
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